Upsetting day April 23,2013

I know I'm not the best but these kids were horrible. I'm babysitting (subistuting) them while they are at school.

This is what happened.

They swarmed the cabinets in the class giving each others turns on who can fit in.
They also got on top of the cabinets jumping and doing head stands. All while they were filming it with a hidden camera. 

Well, nevertheless,  I was approach by the vice principal and shown the video. I was asked why I didn't give notification that they were in the cabinets.

I trusted these students and thought they were better training since they were older than preschoolers.

I was not being tough with this bunch because I trust.  I was the "nice sub."  I took the credit of not watching them and said I would do better.

They were acting just like most have us when we were young. And had the though,"The sub is not a teacher and have no authority."

Long breath shorten, I was called that my project was finished even though I had two more days left to do. 

That infuriated me. It brought all the pain and disappoinments of where my life has took me. Disappointments of being out of finances.

I was creating art while I was watching them. So I blamed art for getting me fired.  That just infuriated me even further.

After becoming calmer, I decided to write to gathering my thoughts.

I'm still going to trust.  Trust that this will work out. My trust is going to be my faith.

I made  the discussion that I don't want to be a sub or a teacher, but being a woman I can always change my mind. 

If nothing better comes I'm going to just do it.

I was just being foolish with letting my anger and disappointment be my downfall.

Bad days always come. I have seen more bad days and remember them more than the good days. I just let my disappointments take over and relive them.